looking over my art, there's a lot of absolute crap up that i first thought i should DELETE but then i thought about the introduction to thomas pynchon's story collection slow learner, from the early phase of his career. he said rereading his old work, he thought it was absolutely terrible and a complete rewrite was in order, but instead he decided to preserve the works in their original form.

i'm not thomas pynchon so crappy drawings of mine have no real value for anybody, but my rationale is that my little 'ortfolio' is mostly creme de la creme stuff in terms of looking really cool or else being witty and interesting. i scribble on paper whenever bored and a lot of what's up is more just whatever page i happened to feel like scanning that day. in the end, deleting would take thought and require work, and i'm feeling LAZY. i figure i could be egotistical putting up crap like someone would really want to look at it, but having it up and then taking it down shows almost MORE pride, as it indicates some degree of SHAME. perhaps, like i know.

a kid threw up on me at work today - i was pretty deadpan to the whole thing, well, about being thrown up on though i did worry a bit about the kid. my reactions are pretty minimal to lots of things but i think it's that nothing surprises me, not in a cynical way, more in a well-prepared sort of way. i chalk it up to a childhood spent reading advice columns and self-help books.